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Thursday, March 26, 2009

A New Beginning - Round Eleven

Guys make sure you check out my picture new blog. Sorry about the delay lakin i wasnt motivated. This post was partially written before and i just completed it.


K: Hey - i hope you dont mind. I got your BB PIN from Flan

M: La its ok - but who is this?

K: Its Khalifa

M: Oh Hi - how r u?

K: b5air damich inty b5air

K: So how was your drive back home

M: Wallah it was ok - na3ast shway fildarb lakin i made it in one peice

K: 7amdila 3ala salamtich

30 minutes later

K: So tell me - laish wayid faqda il2amal fil 7ayah?

M: LOOOOL minu gal?

K: Mbayin 3alaich - ramsitich kilha 3an shgad intay mirta7a being single oo matabeen tirtab6ain ib7ad oo you dont want to give up your independance

M: Inzain 9a7 lakin chaif hatha yow7y ini faqda il2amal fil 7ayah?

K: Mamaty ilzawaj nu9 ileeman. ilwa7da ma tiktimil 7ayat-ha ila laman t7a9il wald il7alal wilrayyal ma yiktimil ila laman y7a9il shareekat 7ayateh

M: Madri wallah yumkin lany i got hurt enough and i dont want to get hurt again. ilwiqaya 5airun min il3ilaj. if i dont let anyone in then i dont risk the chance of getting hurt. 9a7 wila la2??

K: lakin hay mub 6areeqa wa7id y3eesh beeha 7ayateh

6 hours later, Meems and Khalifa were still chatting via BBM.

M: Mumkin as2alik so2al?

K: Tfa'6alay

M: laish inta wayid mihtam iny a'3ayir ra2yi fi hatha ilmawthoo3

K: bas lany ma7ib achoof 7ad y'6ayi3 juzu2 kbeer min 7ayateh 3ala ashya tafha

M: ma fahamt

K: mathalan inty a7isich u meet new people lakin ma titgarabain min a7ad - chanich msawya jdar oo ma tubain a7ad ygarib mineh aw minich

M: hhmmm

K: oo kilman yis2alich so2al 5a9 u make a joke out of it

M: lany ta3bana

K: min shu?

M: ta3abt min iny a5aly ilnas ygarboon mini oo a7i6 kil ilthiqa feehum oo ba3dain they stab me in the back

K: cham mara 9ayratlich?

M: ooohhhoooo wayid

K: im sorry to say this lakin it happens to everyone oo ma tloomeen 7ad '3air nafsich

M: WHAT?? u want me to blame myself - u want me to take it on myself that i am the nice one here?

M: you want me to accept people as they are and just accept what they have to dish out at me?

M: you expect me to forgive and forget everytime it happens wala chaneh it happened?

M: im sorry but i will NOT justify other peoples actions. ana ma sawait shay 7ag a7ad laish ysawoon feeny chithi??


M: ???????

K: you know i said that cos i knew you would get passionate with your answer. Oo bas ba'3ait achoof how passionate you can be

M: mathgal dammik

3 hours later

M: listen moo chaneh ma9a5naha?? its 730 in the morning and i havent slept since day before yesterday

K: yeah sure im sorry lo ga3adtich - bas mumkin 6alab basee6?

M: tfa'6al

K: Can I have your number??

M: ?

K: I know i can always talk to you here on the BB lakin ba'3ait a more personal method of communication.

M: alright sure - its 00968 99123456

K: aywa ragam il was6a

M: LOOOOL la wala 6ila3ly bil9ufa

00971501234567 calling

M: Alo?

K: hala

M: ahlain

K: I just wanted to tell you good night in person.

M: mashkoor wallah - good night

K: ti9ba7ain 3ala alf 3afya

Call ended

K: ;D

Monday, March 2, 2009

A New Beginning - Round Ten

It took her much longer than she expected to readjust her life. She just never knew how much she depended on Sami and Hanan in her daily life. Even the simple things like finding out the number of a restaurant, she used to call him instead of 1318.

Muscat was too small and she knew his hangouts. Since their "breakup", everyone suddenly felt obliged to report to her his whereabouts and doings. Therefore she avoided any and all places that she felt she might bump into him. A few times she was meeting friends in a certain place but if she saw his car in the parking lot, she would turn around and head back home or reroute the friends she was meeting. Once or twice they ended up side by side at the traffic lights but with both cars heavily tinted, she couldnt tell whether he was looking at her and she was hoping that he couldnt see that she was staring.

She decided she wanted to make some changes in her life. She finally accepted the job that has been on hold for a while and she also enrolled into the MBA program that she had always promised herself she would persue. She never went on that date. In fact since that day that she lost what she considered her adopted family, she had never even so much as considered a romantic though towards any guy. She refused setups, she rejected dates, she even turned down three 5e6a6eeb during the 10 month period since that day. She had only been proposed to twice before and those three in this period was quite a record. They were all those semi-arranged kind where the guy probably saw her in a supermarket or something like that. She hated this type and especially when she found out that one of them is a guy she knew and had been out socially with a few times since they have mutual friends.

She spent most of her free time alone thinking things over. She was a typical cancerian. She always over thought and over analysed situations and in most cases she just wore herself out. She spent a lot of time at a childhood hang out in the PDO area. Double O Seven she called it. She remembered taking him there and him realising that it was called 007 because it was the number of the water tank and in fact no relevance to James Bond at all.

She then started spending some alone time at the little strip of beach on the old road of the Dive Centre. That again reminded her of him. Same as Athaiba Beach and 3urooq and any other location. She realised that she had shared so much with him. Eventually she stopped going out and just stayed at home. Muscat is not what it used to be anymore. Everything just reminded her of her betrayal.

As the National Day Holiday were nearing, it was December and the majority of the month has been holidays which she spent in bed. So since it was a long-ish holiday she decided she will get away. She didnt tell anyone what she was planning on doing, she just sprung it last minute on her dad and drove down to Dubai. The first 2 days she hibernated with her phones switched off and the lights out majority of the time.

The 3rd day, she woke up revitalised and rejuvenated. She decided she had wasted enough of her time thinking about what could have been but shouldnt have been. She needed to get back into her life and regain control. She drove over to Habtoor Grand Hotel and underwent a full service. She made calls during her pedicure and texted friends while her hair was being blowdried. A few hours later, she came out feeling fresh and renewed with a full schedule for the rest of her stay.

That night, she met friends for dinner at Buddha Bar and was seated next to a random Emarati friend of a friend. She hardly spoke to him but managed to pick up through group conversation that his name was Khalifa and he was originally from Abu Dhabi. He didnt really catch her attention until they were all waiting for their cars at the valet parking and agreeing on meeting in Boudoir. So being the typical super nice, super friendly girl she was that guys often mistook it for come ons, she turned to him and said "binshoofik fi Boudoir laa?"

"Only if you start changing you mind about the male species? Tara mub kilina 7ayawanat oo mub kilina 5awana. You need to start having faith in the other 50% of the earth's population" he said and got into his car.

A New Beginning - Round Nine

"Whaa. . . cough cough cough cough" started Sami but could not continue. He had to get up and walk it off and despite his coughing fit, he picked up his cigerettes and walked outside to the patio.

"3of 3of" said Meems as she walked behind him rubbing his back. "la7tha bajeeblik gla9 may". She came back to find him furiously puffing away while clearing his throat between puffs. She picked up a cigerette and lit it.

Meems: Gilt bag3id wiyak 3abal ma Hanan itchayik 3ala ilbishkara wil 6abee5
Sami: M - goolily ma3 meen 6al3a inty? oo kaif ma tgoolily min qabil?
Meems: Sami!!! I told you now didnt i? shfeek?
Sami: I need to check on the guy
Meems: WHAT!!! why?? im not marrying the guy, its a first date.
Sami: Is he taking you out for drinks??
Meems: Come on you know I quit drinking a while ago. Whats this all about??


Meems: Samsoom, is there something your not telling me??
Sami: I have to go - im meeting to boys and im already late. Tell Hanan that i will be eating out

And with that Sami walked out. More like stormed out. Meems sat there in confusion as she finished off her cigerette and walked back in to find Hanan rubbing her big belly.

Meems: Hatha a5oosh 3alaih 7arakat '3areeba. anyways ygool byit3asha wiya ilshabab
Hanan: Inti 7mara

Meems stopped mid stride and stared at Hanan. She knew her well enough to know that if she used the strong swear words it was nothing serious but when she used words like 7mara and kalba that meant something HUGE was happening.

"Hanan shfeech inti ba3ad - 3ad ma 9arat!!! 7asha lillah mara thania ma bagoolkum lo 3indy date. itha tzawajt 3ad intu bit3arfu mithilkum mithil bagi ilnas"

Hanan then picked up her phone and dialled a number. She waited for a few seconds until the called picked up and she yelled "ana ta3abt ma agdar kida - ana ra7 agoolaha kul 7aja" and she shut the phone. Immediately the phone started ringing and she ignored it.

Hanan: Inti 7mara wila btistahbaly?? M a5ooya b7ibik. Bimoot feeky. 9arlu fatra 3awiz yifta7 ma3aky il mawthoo3 bas mano 3arif. I cant beleive you dont see it. I told him I will talk to you but he refused. 3awzik shareeky lakin mush li3ib 3ashan kida gal ra7 yistana omy tirja3 min ijazat-ha 3ashan ykalim ahlik. Min jad inty . . . .

Meems tuned out. The constant ringing of Hanan's phone mixing with her screaming was too much for her to handle so she just tuned out. She wanted to go into the standard "no Samsoom and I are bestest of friends - he doesnt think of me that way" speech that she gives to all their mutual friends whenever they would comment about their closeness or chemistry.

Meems got up. "Hanan Im sorry - I have to leave. I cant." she picked up her bag and her car keys and walked out. As she neared her car she lifted her head and she saw him. Standing there in front of his very badly parked car in front of the house and his phone on his ear and a knot on his brow. He saw him and his arm fell. He looked at her but couldnt look at her. She had the worst possible reaction in such a situation. She ran into his arms and started crying. She cried for the friend she felt she was loosing. She cried for the man of her dreams that she was hugging right now. She cried for the pained look on his face. She cried for the added pain that she knew she would bring. She pulled away from his warm bear hug and looked up at him. With his cute chubby cheeks she loved biting and his eyes that for some reason were always red for no reason. She realised that she knew this person inside out and she would never find a better match ever. She loved him more than she loved herself. She would give her life for him if it was ever needed.

Meems: Sami . . .
Sami: Please dont say anything. Im embarassed as it is. We can take this as slow as you want or even ignore the fact it ever happened and just go back to the way it used to be.

She will never forget the look he had on his face. She will never forget the pain she knew she caused him. That was the day that Hanan stopped speaking to her. That was the day that she felt she had lost a part of her. That was the day that she beleives now that she made the biggest mistake of her life. That was the day that she found out later that he started drinking. That was the day that she said that one sentence that changed both their lives

Im sorry Samsoom but I can never see you again.